Tuesday, November 22, 2016

Dropped dreams....

Not another set of dropped dreams,
Not another set of despair,
Not another set of endless places, 
With no light in near sight....

Dreams dreamt, actions done, 
There was a cheerful time, 
When everything went, 
Seemingly smooth, in a flow,
Until came the blow, the deliberate one....
So hard, so painful, so selfish,
And so misconstrued... 

For personal gains and benefits, 
For their fifteen minutes of fame, 
Out of their ignorance and callousness...
So against the thirst for knowledge....

So many believers to follow, 
So many to oppose the light of knowledge,  
So many to fall for the dark temptations 
Offered by the opposing ones....

Many a word said, many an action done, 
The opposing ones are trying to blow out the light;
A light so dearly lit, a flame so delicate 
Yet warm and enlightening. 
The devious ones called it dangerous, 
Misled the ignorant to more and more darkness 
Far away from the light of knowledge, 
To enslave them and exploit....

The dream light is wavering, will the flame go out?
Or will it survive and become a blazing Sun?
Hands tried to protect it, kept faith that it will be there,
What if hands are withdrawn? Won't the devious ones win 
In putting out the light?
It cannot be put out, at any rate, many might be running ahead
With brighter flames, finding new knowledge.
But who knows what one is going to find, no matter how 
Feeble the flame is? 
Or what it will throw light upon? 

Fallen in the darkest trench, the heart aches, 
Thinking that another dream will be dropped,
If dreams are to be dropped, why dream?
Why bear pain, why believe against all odds?
Because, it is harder to live with the guilt of not trying, 
Harder to regret having not tried and given up,
Harder to let go of earnest dreams and aspirations, 
Harder than being crucified with false allegations,
Harder than giving up the battle for knowledge to the treacherous....

It is hard not to dream....
Because, dreams are meant to be dreamt, 
Even in the darkest hour, in the farthest corners of the heart, 
There will always be that voice "atleast you tried your best",
"You gave your best, and stood your ground
No matter how hard it was, you still dreamt that dream"....

May dreams come true and aspirations realities.... 

Sunday, September 11, 2016

Back from love...

So cheer up and pull yourself back,
It is not the world's end;
You get knocked off,
But then stand up again.

If you get knocked off again,
Stand up, with your head held high,
There's nothing wrong with a fall,
That's how you learn.

But do learn and come back up,
'Coz love is not life itself,
But just a part of it.

There are things to learn
And places to go and see,
Things to do and cherish,
Moments to capture and treasure.

If you don't come out of your shell,
How will you; ever fulfill those dreams?
Dreamt long ago and kept locked
Inside the depths of your heart.

Time to wake up from that sad slumber,
You may have to lumber,
But you will find yourself,
Again in a new light. :)

Friday, June 24, 2016

Secret hippie guy

Hey secret little hippie guy,
I love the colour of your eyes;
And I love your hair style
The way you put on that smile.

I feel like dancing to a happy tune,
Thinking of the song that you sang at noon;
Your voice is so heavenly,
That I listen to crazily.

Will you give me an autograph?
I want to take your photograph.
I've got a secret little crush,
On you but I will not rush.

I feel like listening to your song,
So sweet all day along;
Hey cute secret hippie guy,
I can't stop smiling, don't know why! :)

Wednesday, February 3, 2016

My share of loneliness

I want my share of loneliness,
Away from all the madding crowd,
A moment of silence
When I don't have to answer phone calls,
Ringing incessantly leaving me 
No room for thought.

I want my share of loneliness 
When people don't tell me 
"Do this, do that, don't do" and all;
And expect me to fit the bill, 
A bill to fit in and pretend that I belong.

I want my share of loneliness,
When I am left alone, 
For myself, be it a life 
Happy or sad, but mine only.
When people do not expect me
To be a dutiful person, so dutiful 
That they expect me to bear everything 
Silently despite their hurtful words or actions.

I want my big share of loneliness
Which was endowed upon me, 
By envious, jealous or just cruel 
People who used to remind me 
"You are none of us, you don't belong".
It hurt back then, but as time went, 
Loneliness became my biggest companion, 
That loneliness which protected me 
From people who would judge me,
And spit fire upon me.

I really want my loneliness back,
The pristine loneliness when 
I could live my life my way, 
Choosing what I liked, discarding the rest.
I miss my great loneliness, 
Eventhough it would pull me to depths 
Of dearth and despair, at times.

Still there was a goal, lonesome 
But satisfying, challenging 
But interesting, silent yet eloquent, 
Leading me up that path to what I was seeking.
Where is it now? Oh! Have I lost perspective?

I seek that silence in my heart,
But all I can hear are hollow words,
Ringing in my ears, "you are selfish", 
"You are cruel", "you are worthless", 
"You are not welcome", "get out",
"You are arrogant", "you are heartless",
"You ruin our lives", "you ruin our peace",
"You should do this", "you shouldn't do that",
"You shouldn't let anybody down", 
"Fit the bill 'cause you are a female",
"You have no right to choose a life of yours",
"You have no right to pursue your dreams",
"'Cause so much is socially expected out of you",
"Like how you dress, how you talk, how to "endure"",
"Without complaints", "you can't stand up and speak",
"For yourself 'cause you are a woman", "your life doesn't matter",
"'Cause you are a woman", "you should toil for others", 
"To "take care of everybody"", "you have no right to take care",
"Of yourself 'cause you happen to be a woman", "you should be",
"Selfless and giving and should close your eyes and ears",
"To the abuses towards you and the mistakes a man commits",
"'Cause you happen to be a woman and men cannot change",
"You can't live alone because "you have to be taken care of"", 
"Your education does not matter, you are a slave", 
"Your opinion does not matter, 'cause I am the alpha",
"You can never be smarter than me, 'cause you are a woman",
"I will shower abuses on you and tarnish your name if you"
"Are appreciated, 'cause you are a woman and smarter than me";

And so on goes those hollow words and actions, 
Which keep ringing in my head. 
I am fed up;
Fed up of everything, every single thing expected 
Out of me and imposed on me.
I simply do not want to bear anymore
Because it seems I have lost myself, 
And my dreams. Where is that person
Who always would keep me company?
I can't find herself in a mirror, 
My face looks unfamiliar,
My thoughts nonexistent.
Have I lost myself among 
All those peripheries?
I want to ask all those hollow voices;
"Why can't you just leave me alone?
Am I ruining your peace of mind? 
Then why can't you leave me in peace?"

I need silence and 
My big fat share of loneliness,
To pour these voices and useless
Mundane "problems" of "life"
Down the drain and go on, 
Find me again, to live my life,